11 And it came to pass in those days, when Moses was grown, that he went out unto his brethren, and looked on their burdens: and he spied an Egyptian smiting an Hebrew, one of his brethren.
12 And he looked this way and that way, and when he saw that there was no man, he slew the Egyptian, and hid him in the sand.
13 And when he went out the second day, behold, two men of the Hebrews strove together: and he said to him that did the wrong, Wherefore smitest thou thy fellow?
14 And he said, Who made thee a prince and a judge over us? intendest thou to kill me, as thou killedst the Egyptian? And Moses feared, and said, Surely this thing is known.
15 Now when Pharaoh heard this thing, he sought to slay Moses. But Moses fled from the face of Pharaoh, and dwelt in the land of Midian: and he sat down by a well.
Moses lived a life of luxury in the palace of the King of Egypt. He would have enjoyed the best in education, military training, the best in food and drink, and a place in the royal family. He would have felt like a Mr. Somebody.
He would have also been raised up to know his Hebrew lineage through his parents and at some point, either through them, or his own thinking, he saw himself as the deliverer of his people from Egypt.
One day he sees an Egyptian striking a Hebrew slave and he decides to do something about it. He kills the Egyptian.
He knew this was a bad thing because he looked around before he attacked this man and then he hid him in the sand, thinking no one knew his actions.
The next day he saw two Hebrews fighting and tries to settle their quarrel, but he soon finds out that EVERYONE knew what he had done, even Pharaoh, and he fled for his life into the land of Median. We see him in the end, alone and rejected setting down by a well.
So what went wrong with Moses?
Was he arrogant?
Did he have some kind of Messiah complex?
He had at some point come to the belief that he would deliver his people from their slavery. He must have believed that his actions would cause his people to rise up and follow him, but that didn’t happen.
In fact, the Hebrew men outright rejected him.
What would this have done to his mind?
Everything he had believed was now thrown out of the window. After all wasn’t this the reason that he had been delivered from death?
Wasn’t this the reason that God had placed him in the courts of Pharaoh?
Wasn’t this the plan of God for him or was it all circumstance?
The facts were that this was the actual reason that God had delivered and placed Moses in this position. He would judge and lead his people out of Egypt, but not in his time, it would be in God’s time and in God’s way.
Not through murder, something that must be hidden, it would be in front of all eyes, something that glorified God. This way would have only glorified Moses.
Even though Moses had done the right thing, in defending and trying to deliver his people, he had done it in a wrong way.
He had acted out of impulse and anger and this caused him all kinds of grief.
Sometimes we can find ourselves in the same situation as Moses.
We were called by God into service; into ministry and we move in a particular direction, thinking that this is the will of God. It all makes sense to us. This must be what God wants and He can’t do this thing, this activity, this ministry without us, and we start thinking of ourselves in a way that we shouldn’t.
The truth is that God doesn’t need us to do anything for Him but He chooses to use us to do His will. We should remember the prayer that Jesus gave His disciples and pray that only His will be done.
When my will is done without God, even though it may be what God wanted, I will always end up feeling rejected, broken, and alone because anything I do is in my own power, in my own flesh.
God calls and we answer, but God doesn’t always give us all of the steps like we want. He gives us step one and we must wait on Him. The most important thing is to pray for guidance before we act or react, and allow each day the development of less of us and more of Christ.
He must increase in us
29 He that hath the bride is the bridegroom: but the friend of the bridegroom, which standeth and heareth him, rejoiceth greatly because of the bridegroom’s voice: this my joy therefore is fulfilled.
30 He must increase, but I must decrease.
31 He that cometh from above is above all: he that is of the earth is earthly, and speaketh of the earth: he that cometh from heaven is above all.
His mind must become our mind:
1 Corinthians 2:
9 But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.
10 But God hath revealed them unto us by his Spirit: for the Spirit searcheth all things, yea, the deep things of God.
11 For what man knoweth the things of a man, save the spirit of man which is in him? even so the things of God knoweth no man, but the Spirit of God.
12 Now we have received, not the spirit of the world, but the spirit which is of God; that we might know the things that are freely given to us of God.
13 Which things also we speak, not in the words which man’s wisdom teacheth, but which the Holy Ghost teacheth; comparing spiritual things with spiritual.
14 But the natural man receiveth not the things of the Spirit of God: for they are foolishness unto him: neither can he know them, because they are spiritually discerned.
15 But he that is spiritual judgeth all things, yet he himself is judged of no man.
16 For who hath known the mind of the Lord, that he may instruct him? but we have the mind of Christ.
If we pray that His will and His will only is done, and we learn to wait on the Lord, we too will know what it means to be used by and for the glory of God in our ministry, our family, our work, and in our very lives.